[Jillian]

no phone.
which means no way of talking to him.
how the hell am i going to do this?

i hate thinking my friends care when really they dont give a shit and just tune me out.

well um...
i was having a good night.
now im really sad.

he cant even have a picture with me.
or she will get mad at him.

do you realize how that makes me feel?

i hate looking at you.
breathing your air.
and i hate your friends.
STILL.

dammit! 

ew.
those pictures.
NO. NO. NO.
stop. 
please?
i dont want to see him kiss that girl.
what if i see you again?
i hope to.. i think?

i dont think i can handle seeing you.



i miss georgia.
@#!#$.
<3

Current Mood: .

there i did it.
and without you.

lets wait for the outcome.

you constantly put me down.
and it makes everyone not like you more.
and they tell me to be done with you.
even my mom tells me to.

sometimes i want to just say
FUCK YOU
but i choose not to.

your desperate.
dont call me on what i do.
ill do whatever i want.

i think i may of made the mistake in who i let go.
i think i need to start making decisions on my own.

and keep the people in my life
that want me in theres.
not that plan on throwing me away.

The Only People You Need In Your Life
Are The People That Need You In Theres.

rude. uncalled for.
and these are my "friends"?
why are you still in my life?
.

Current Mood: aggravated

you make my life a living hell.
yet everytime im with you.
i love it.

but sometimes.
you just make me feel like pure shit.

and i also think.
i take the anger i have for you
out on your girlfriend.

which is a very bad thing.
Kvetch.

Chavera Shelach

<3

hi.
today is
valentines day.

lame.

but avi and i are hanging out.

but damian is coming here today.
ick. hes a jerk.
i seriouslly give up on him.

yeah amazing how girls can change boys.

<3

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away

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You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
And I probably forgot to tell you this
Like that time when I forgot to tell you about the scar
Remember how uncomfortable that made you feel?
See you're not what I expected
But you're the only one who knows how to handle me
And you're such a great kisser and I know that you agree
You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
I hope you can forgive me for that time
When I put my hand between your legs
And said it was small
Cuz its really not at all
I guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down
Just to keep you around
Cuz the day that you realize how amazing you are
You're gonna leave me
You're the only one who
Holds my hair back when I'm drunk and get sick
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean
You're the only one who
Drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams
You're the only one who
Knows exactly what I mean

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Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

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I'm not livin' without you.
I don't want to be free.
I'm stayin',
I'm stayin',
And you, and you, you're gonna love me.
Ooh, you're gonna love me.
And I am telling you
I'm not going,
Even though the rough times are showing.
There's just no way,
There's no way.
We're part of the same place.
We're part of the same time.
We both share the same blood.
We both have the same mind.
And time and time we have so much to share,
I'm not wakin' up tomorrow mornin'
And findin' that there's nobody there.
I'm not livin' without you.

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SCENE.


<3

Current Mood: confused

Current Music: the good girl on oxygen